Today I got to share in a beautiful moment. The one year birthday of the son of one of my greatest friends. A birthday that many of us were unsure if we would get to see. Praise God for mercy. As I looked around this joyous event though, I couldn't help but become discouraged. I was in a room surrounded by the very people I had grown up with. I watched as they kissed their husbands and wives. Or showed off their newly shining engagement rings. I smiled as they held each others newborns and rubbed their pregnant bellies. And as I walked out of that event I couldn't help but question... God, when will it be my time? I am content in my singleness 9 days out of 10. Until days like today where I am reminded of the beauty of marriage and a family.I just couldn't help but feel discouraged. When I imagined rounding the final turn of 23 as a young girl, I imagined it far differently.
As the day wore on, I forgot about my troubles. I allowed myself to get caught up in the daily grind and just forget. And while I was sitting in my own thoughts my very greatest friend sent me a message that she had no clue would profoundly effect me. She said... "Jesus is really doing work in you." and that's when I broke. I cried my eyes out. (Like the emotional baby I am). I am so quick to be selfish. I am so quick to forget that God is in control. It was a beautiful reminder that my plans are minuscule to an almighty God. It was comforting to know that someone on the outside could see God working in my life, even when I couldn't.
My encouragement for you... Hold fast. God has a plan.
As the day wore on, I forgot about my troubles. I allowed myself to get caught up in the daily grind and just forget. And while I was sitting in my own thoughts my very greatest friend sent me a message that she had no clue would profoundly effect me. She said... "Jesus is really doing work in you." and that's when I broke. I cried my eyes out. (Like the emotional baby I am). I am so quick to be selfish. I am so quick to forget that God is in control. It was a beautiful reminder that my plans are minuscule to an almighty God. It was comforting to know that someone on the outside could see God working in my life, even when I couldn't.
My encouragement for you... Hold fast. God has a plan.