“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.”
Lamentations 3:24
English Standard Version
Yet another quiet evening at work spent meditating. I am so blessed to have evenings like tonight. I'm currently listening to "Us". They are pretty legit. Peep them out on iTunes...
So the Lord has really been pressing on my heart lately to really dive in and find my identity in Him. I have been reading and watching a lot of blogs on christianity, being a christian woman, dating, etc. I have been a believer for many, many years but I just feel a hunger and a desire in my life to do more, and be more. For a very long time in my previous dating relationships I found my identity and fulfillment in having a boyfriend. I was serving my heart and desires instead of serving the Lord. This new season in my life has been difficult, in that I am learning to serve the Lord and seek His will in my life and in my romances. I am no longer serving my selfishness, but seeking Gods will and guidance on whether or not as a woman, I am in a place of satisfaction with the Lord that will allow dating to be fruitful. You can't, I repeat, you can't be satisfied with a man until you are satisfied in the Lord. Not only in dating, but in life as a whole. I know that God is seeking me to do more with my life. It's time for me to dive into ministry and serving others. It's a matter of where to begin? A question that I hope to have an answer to very soon...
Until then.. I find hope in the lyrics of this beautiful hymn. I hope you find solace in them as well.
"As a deer pants for water, so my soul thirsts for you
And when I survey Your splendor, You so faithfully renew
Like a bed of rest for my fainting flesh
I am satisfied in you."
So the Lord has really been pressing on my heart lately to really dive in and find my identity in Him. I have been reading and watching a lot of blogs on christianity, being a christian woman, dating, etc. I have been a believer for many, many years but I just feel a hunger and a desire in my life to do more, and be more. For a very long time in my previous dating relationships I found my identity and fulfillment in having a boyfriend. I was serving my heart and desires instead of serving the Lord. This new season in my life has been difficult, in that I am learning to serve the Lord and seek His will in my life and in my romances. I am no longer serving my selfishness, but seeking Gods will and guidance on whether or not as a woman, I am in a place of satisfaction with the Lord that will allow dating to be fruitful. You can't, I repeat, you can't be satisfied with a man until you are satisfied in the Lord. Not only in dating, but in life as a whole. I know that God is seeking me to do more with my life. It's time for me to dive into ministry and serving others. It's a matter of where to begin? A question that I hope to have an answer to very soon...
Until then.. I find hope in the lyrics of this beautiful hymn. I hope you find solace in them as well.
"As a deer pants for water, so my soul thirsts for you
And when I survey Your splendor, You so faithfully renew
Like a bed of rest for my fainting flesh
I am satisfied in you."