So, sometimes you just have to be real. Sometimes blogs are just really personal non-entertaining babble. Sometimes, being a Christian isn't rainbows and butterflies. Sometimes it's not very fun at all...
Lately, I have been hopeless and horribly angry with God. I have been apathetic about my relationship and walk with Him. I have been in an awful state of "I just don't care." I know some of you are reading this with your jaw on the floor or your hand over your mouth. Did she REALLY just say that. Did she REALLY just put that in a blog. Yes, I really did. Part of keeping yourself accountable as a Christian is airing out your dirty laundry for other Christians to see. Not so they can down you for it, but so they can grab a scrub brush and help you clean it out. This is one of those moments...
The last few years of my life have held a series of events that aren't necessary to spell out. It is only necessary to say that they completely shook my system and turned my world upside down. They left me crying out for the Lord and recieving what I felt like was no answer. As a fairly mature Christian, I know better. I know that "NO" is also an answer. Just one that I am not keen on accepting.
So for reasons that aren't necessary to explain. I am just angry. I am angry at the Lord for mistakes of the flesh and I am apathetically giving no care or love to my relationship with Him. Honestly, there is no other point to this blog then getting it out. And hoping that if you are a Christian reading this, that you would pray for me. And that maybe if you've gone through this before, you can point me to the scriptures necessary to get past this obstacle.
Peace, Love, and Coping everyone!
Lately, I have been hopeless and horribly angry with God. I have been apathetic about my relationship and walk with Him. I have been in an awful state of "I just don't care." I know some of you are reading this with your jaw on the floor or your hand over your mouth. Did she REALLY just say that. Did she REALLY just put that in a blog. Yes, I really did. Part of keeping yourself accountable as a Christian is airing out your dirty laundry for other Christians to see. Not so they can down you for it, but so they can grab a scrub brush and help you clean it out. This is one of those moments...
The last few years of my life have held a series of events that aren't necessary to spell out. It is only necessary to say that they completely shook my system and turned my world upside down. They left me crying out for the Lord and recieving what I felt like was no answer. As a fairly mature Christian, I know better. I know that "NO" is also an answer. Just one that I am not keen on accepting.
So for reasons that aren't necessary to explain. I am just angry. I am angry at the Lord for mistakes of the flesh and I am apathetically giving no care or love to my relationship with Him. Honestly, there is no other point to this blog then getting it out. And hoping that if you are a Christian reading this, that you would pray for me. And that maybe if you've gone through this before, you can point me to the scriptures necessary to get past this obstacle.
Peace, Love, and Coping everyone!