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It's muh birfffday y'all!!!24. Twenty-four. 2. 4. Holy crap! I am twenty-four. Stop, wait, when did this happen!? I am 1 year away from a quarter life crisis and 6 years away from thirty! OH. MY. GOSH! Seriously where does the time go?
So my beau asked me a question today that I am sure he didn't mean to be philosophical but it totally became philosophical... Lol. He said, "What is something you want to do in your 24th year of life?" And in true T.Judd fashion I took it to a whole other level. What DO I want to do with my 24th year of life? Well... what better way to figure out then to create a list? (Cue ratchet meme, I made that snitch a list... Snitches love lists!)
Goodbye 23, here is to 24 and all that it has to offer. Just some late night reflections. More for myself than anyone else. I apologize if you were hoping for an interesting post. Today I got to share in a beautiful moment. The one year birthday of the son of one of my greatest friends. A birthday that many of us were unsure if we would get to see. Praise God for mercy. As I looked around this joyous event though, I couldn't help but become discouraged. I was in a room surrounded by the very people I had grown up with. I watched as they kissed their husbands and wives. Or showed off their newly shining engagement rings. I smiled as they held each others newborns and rubbed their pregnant bellies. And as I walked out of that event I couldn't help but question... God, when will it be my time? I am content in my singleness 9 days out of 10. Until days like today where I am reminded of the beauty of marriage and a family.I just couldn't help but feel discouraged. When I imagined rounding the final turn of 23 as a young girl, I imagined it far differently.
As the day wore on, I forgot about my troubles. I allowed myself to get caught up in the daily grind and just forget. And while I was sitting in my own thoughts my very greatest friend sent me a message that she had no clue would profoundly effect me. She said... "Jesus is really doing work in you." and that's when I broke. I cried my eyes out. (Like the emotional baby I am). I am so quick to be selfish. I am so quick to forget that God is in control. It was a beautiful reminder that my plans are minuscule to an almighty God. It was comforting to know that someone on the outside could see God working in my life, even when I couldn't. My encouragement for you... Hold fast. God has a plan. love Love is patient (able to accept or tolerate delays, problems, or suffering without becoming annoyed or anxious.)
and kind (having or showing a friendly, generous, and considerate nature.); love does not envy (a feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck) or boast (talk with excessive pride and self-satisfaction about one's achievements, possessions, or abilities.); it is not arrogant (having or revealing an exaggerated sense of one's own importance or abilities.) or rude (offensively impolite or ill-mannered.). It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable (having or showing a tendency to be easily annoyed or made angry.) or resentful (feeling or expressing bitterness or indignation at having been treated unfairly.) ; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears (carry.) all things, believes (accept something as true; feel sure of the truth of.) all things, hopes (a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.) all things, endures (suffer something painful or difficult patiently;remain in existence; last.) all things. "So I will call upon Your name, and keep my eyes above the waves. When oceans rise. My soul will rest in Your embrace" There are times in this life that are marked by deep, unwarranted sadness. Moments of pain for no reason. Times when nothing is wrong, but something isn't right. I've had this conversation with only one, maybe two, other people who understand this phenomenon. It is not a feeling that everyone may experience, but those that do experience it understand it's complexity. The times when you cry, but you aren't really sure why. Those moments where you function through your daily life just fine, but inside of you a deep storm is raging. If I must water it down for you, it's like a "funk" times 100. An old friend of mine described it quite beautifully...
"there are these moments: when you don’t care that it’s freezing outside but you’re going to sit out there anyway as long as it takes, when you walk through the wet grass barefoot, when you stumble around the woods when you should be doing your homework, when you walk slowly in the rain instead of hurrying to get out of it, when you do these things that normal people wouldn’t do, and i think they’re kind of beautiful. it’s like there’s something inside us that just stops and while the rest of the world turns, we’re just waiting to figure out how, or why." These are moments in my life that I don't experience often, and each time I try a little less to figure out why. I think there are just times in our life that God forces us to just stop and feel. Sometimes, we get so busy we forget what it's like to be alive. And life, true life, is not just superficial on the surface happiness. It is pain and deep rooted sadness. Maybe it's sadness for our broken selves. Maybe it is sadness for the broken world around us. Maybe it is sadness that God Himself has been forgotten in this world. I wish I knew... However I don't think I ever will. That's one of the glories of this life on earth. Some things are just beyond our understanding. So, for now... I guess I will just dwell in this mystery and feel whatever it is God is weighing on my heart. dam·aged goods
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hum·ble ˈhəmbəl/ adjective
chris·tian krisCHən/ adjective
stub·born stəbərn/ adjective
beau·ti·ful ˈbyo͞otəfəl/ adjective
in·se·cure ˌinsiˈkyo͝or/ adjective
sub·mis·sive səbˈmisiv/ adjective
meek mēk/ adjective
Another peaceful night at work. (Knock on wood.) I've been sitting at my desk staring out our large windows for the last hour or so. Watching the lights change, and the occasional red & blue's that drive by. I forget that that not all of the world sleeps while I am at work. I forget that there are other night walkers like me...
As I sit, I am pondering the semester that is soon to begin at the start of next week. Lord how on earth did it happen that fast? I don't know exactly how I feel about it. (Of course, I never know how I feel about anything.) On the one hand I am happy. In 12 more months I will be dunzo! But I am not sure if I am prepared for the coming stress, lack of sleep, and lack of social life. Not to mention the freezing cold on campus! Yikes. But alas, it will come whether I am ready or not. Time waits for no one. Just another blog to clear the many thoughts circulating my mind this evening. Peace, love, and coping everyone. It's time. You all knew it was coming. Drum roll please.... THE NEW YEARS RESOLUTION BLOG!It is time to look back on all that was good, bad, and ugly in the year of 2013. 2013 was a year of blessing, pain, and growth for me. (How cliche' right!?) From a terrifying car accident that totaled my car, to the birth of my beautiful nephew in Christ Jonathon JR., hard break-ups, moving, new churches, coming to the home stretch of school, practicum, research, dating... Need I go on? If you can name it, then I probably did it in 2013. (Or at least that's how I feel!) So in true New Years fashion I have developed my list of resolutions for the coming 2014. Here it is... 2014 Resolutions
I genuinely would like to accomplish those things in this coming year, and even more than that! I find it funny though how the new year brings a new zeal and motivation to actually accomplish things. Everyone wants to suddenly get fit, and of course the ever famous, fall in love! It's even more interesting though how much we want to let go of with the new year. We want to forget the break-ups, the sad moments, and just the all around bad days. As you all know my favorite show in the whole entire world is "How I Met Your Mother". (2013 also brought the final season of HIMYM to my life!!) I think a quote from that show captures it best... You wrote down all these things to say goodbye to, but so many of them are good things. Why not just say goodbye to the bad things? Say goodbye to all the times you felt lost, to all the times it was a ‘no’ instead of a ‘yes,’ to all the scrapes and bruises, to all the heartache. Say goodbye to everything you really want to do for the last time, ... good things will always be here waiting for you. So whatever it is you are letting go of, or holding on to for this new year, just remember one important thing. You don't need a new year to start a new chapter. Every single day is another opportunity to throw away the person you don't want to be, and become exactly the person you were meant to be. (Cheesy, but so true!)
So with that, I wish you all a very safe and happy new year! Bring it on 2014, I am certain it will be EPIC! I have found that the older I get, the more I worry. I say this after waking up at the crack of dawn with a whirl-wind of stress on my mind. I need to find a reliable car. I need to get textbooks. How am I going to pay tuition this semester... And the list goes on and on. As I sit and ponder these many life struggles I begin to think to myself... Am I doing God any justice right now? Am I really trusting in Him? Here is what the bible tells us about worry; “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?" All throughout the bible God tells us; Do not be afraid! Do not worry! Why is it that our flesh is so quick to forget how mighty our God is? Why is it we only seem to trust in him during the good moments? When we worry we are not trusting in the Lord. We are not remembering that God is a sovereign, omniscient, omnipotent God... In other words, we have forgotten that God is all knowing, ever present, having ALL authority. Even on the things I think are far to small for him to care about. Such as tuition and financial struggles. We forget, or at least, I know that I forget; that God does care about our "tiny" problems. The Lord cares for us. I am His child and he longs for me to turn to Him not only in my time of praise, but also in my time of need. How often we forget to do so. How often we forget just how big He is...
Just some early morning food for thought. |
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